Artist: K.A.A.N. Album: 4for1 (S) Song: 4for1 Typed by: AZ Lyrics As a child I dealt with abuse, I'm fusing pain with the mic Felt like the world was on my shoulders, took attempts on my life I understand that isn't healthy Like, how the fuck could it help me? Reflecting as an adult and realising I was selfish, but You couldn't tell me no different Try all you want I'm not listening We had no shelter or place we could turn This shit is routine and the lesson I learned Is keep your mouth shut, the more quiet you are No yelling or screaming inside of the house Cause that wasn't ever allowed See, I wasn't raised to believe I could possibly be anything that I wanted There is no support for the kid with the home that is hectic We were dissented Tell me the way I should go Everything I should already know All the emotions I'm willing to show My adolescence, progression, and growth were stunted So I'm feeling mentally stuck I live on the edge and I don't give a fuck A handful of pills, that was never enough The way that I cope with this is living this up But if I recall we had been through it all You niggas are speaking no problems of poverty As if you actually seen it But bitch, when we lived in that trailer we never had nothing but roaches around and we couldn't complain My parents would bicker, it's always the same My mother was picking us up after school We'd be in the back of that old station waggon 96.3 on the radio blastin' Smokey Robinson would have us relaxin' Quiet Storm before we step in the madness All of the peace that we had is now past us Walk in the door but there's yelling and screaming There wasn't a place where I ever felt safe And I couldn't relate to the kids that I saw Cause I felt that they all had it better than me Cause they don't have to deal with the shit that I deal with I stay in the middle of arguments Shitting myself and believing this shit is my fault Every time they would fight it was grief Closing my eyes and my ears in my room When I opened them up, man, that shit never ceased And I want to be free but there's nowhere to leave I wondered why people keep fucking with me Cause when I was in school they would tell me I'm slow Cause I never attend anything I was told So they put it on me like that shit was my fault Cause there couldn't be something that was in the way or the place that I stay Cause I never got help My mother got tired from busting her ass Like, dropping us off and then going to work and then picking us up and then bringing us home To a man that appreciates nothing at all While he burning a cigarette, staining the wall Monday through Saturday crushing us all But gets up on Sunday to go praise the lord But there's [?] in those moments to spare I figured it out, that life isn't fair So do what you can Cause nobody cares It's all about loving the memories that you have made in your happiness while you are here I pray that you live without fear And you never think you're in need of materials just to complete you Cause that is the truth Don't be dependent on things that can dissipate or disappear when you need them the most Lawd! Look here I've been the man for a while My definitive plan And I'm attentive to my terror lyrics of part too quick Style constipated, I could never give two shits Coming through your speaker like you need to go "Who this?" Now you need a nigga that's only giving you elegance I gotta kill 'em, regulator, moving with malevolence I try to paint a positive picture while feeling negative A sedative, I soothe 'em, assuming that I'm a sinner While sending you serendipity, I live in misery I'm playing Mister Misdemeanour, changing my demeanour Feigning for the fountain of youth I wanted wisdom and truth I know these other mother fuckers try to give an excuse But my style is too loose, prefer to be reclusive I give a simple sentence, serve an angel with acoustics I been showing the way but nobody is tryna follow me Believin' what I'm doing, I'll never make an apology I built the foundation for a fuckin' mauseoleum With a citadel and mural like the Roman Colosseum Infiltrated by an infidel, I'll see ya when I see ya Sippin' White Zinfandel I'm a connoisseur and conqueror A commodore with the cadence Occasionally I kill it I'm giving you food for thought, it's enough for a starving village My image you won't acknowledge The mileage up on my brain Time for an all-chain Now pay attention, I switch it Efficiently give a vision The mission is motivated I make it a point, I plan it I done managed to manoeuvre The music is too melodic Don't play it for any novice I'm modest? My nigga, never I focus on getting better Embarrassing anybody You niggas plotting for profit And politicking with others, evasive is what we are I'm working but never seen It's all a part of the plan There's a method to the madness You'll never understand I can spit it any way that I want But you thought I want the flow they never really noticed When you giving up your time And in your mind you're thinking "Man, I'm just a Diamond in the Ruff" I know it's hard, you're feeling down But when you get above the ground I guarantee that you'll survive with nobody up on your side Whenever you do decide you finally feel alive We in love with the truth, we never telling a lie I promise to give you honesty for the rest of my life Man, I swear to God I would never give you nothing that was average A young black savage Fast rap bastard Either way, you see me as the master Owned a plantation, delicious destruction My shit is salacious Distribute discussions, attributing to how I think I can function These guys on the internet think they something Oh no Time for me to put them in their place, quick Lyrically impeccable, punctually embracive Face to face, your fade, it fades, refrains to fame is fake as fuck mistakes that I make I gotta work with that selective amnesia Focus on the text and follow all of the procedures Maybe I'll take a break cause I'm tired I want a breather I know these evil mother fuckers would like to deceive us Jesus are you there, do you hear a nigga talking? I been calling you for years but I feel you just ignoring Like telling your secretary, "Jot it down, he's not important Take his name and his number and tell him I'm busy I'll call him when I can If I ever get the chance If he's giving you attitude then just fuck him in advance I ain't blowin' him up Cause I know that nigga needed me for forgiveness of his sins He need a pen and wanna run but he dependant on the pain Cause that's all that he's got man, I know that's the truth Subjecting myself to silent solitude With no silence inside of me, soon to subdue I'm submitting myself when I plummet I pray they put poems inside of my casket My posthumous spirit is piercing my peers Don't adhere to the fear Or the feel I appear at the peak of a pyramid Pissing on pitiful peons for penance There's plenty pretty petty pressing matters that I know that I need to address My sobrieties First I get I high in excess That don't equal success It just means I feel less than alive I'm surprised that I made it as far as I have when I'm lacking a moral compass Ain't ashamed of my past Still remember when them niggas told me I was trash I wanted to spit a couple of bars, but I'm aware that they would laugh Now I never think about them cause all I did was surpass them, lawd! I said I'm tryna make a way I need the world to make a masterpiece The devil's on my ass That dastardly deviant chasin' me Replacing my emotions I'm motioning towards the negative My nepotism navigates I'll never reach the narrative Your negligence is never necessary It's nefarious The window's getting smaller Looking down a narrow barrel Bullets flying like an arrow Allocated by your hatred Hindering the possibility to possibly make it Aye please, when you rise, tell me what the fuck you really see I pray that you can recognize and find spirituality Hoo! Don't you know fatalities and fallacies are definitely on the way? It's babies killing babies basically Cause don't nobody think I know they have secret agendas To generalize a people of color Formally cover but covet cash and account for a drinking A diamond link And give them all the tools they need to make sure that they become extinct I try to tell all of my niggas We are an endangered species But am I the only one that sees or actually believes to see this Sick and in my seat I seem to see the seed they planted Plants are thrown out of the window of a moving vehicle I mean I veer and steer A benefit that fear is fabricated Face it Base it in my lease of predjudice and poorer confidence Ignoring the injustice of a judicial system That puts a race of people away at a rate that's faster than rabbits Attack it from the inside, destroy a black family Contra' did a lot of hurt that we have not recovered from the 80's They put drugs and guns inside of our communities At least the inner cities to make sure there isn't unity Confusing that you think this isn't a genocide We statistics mother fucker but we in need of some rest And I supply the sentiment if there's actually any left Cause it's either incarceration or seeing an early death In the depths of my soul like the test of control like a test I've been tested, they lessen the blow On the spot they align and combine as a full While exposing a posing impressionate person you'd personally With their personal preference No pardon for passes presented for people to place an opinion Of pitiful, pungunt, disgusting provisions I need to prepare as I peek with a pair That's my pain and my passion, you cannot compare Is it clear that I'm here? Cause I hear that they heeding my messages Heated with heathens, they heavin' [?] to heat up the block And then chop when they eat up the people They call up the cops But they can't stop the evil There's forces at work that will not embrace change It's insane how they think all black people the same Lawd! Eh! 4for1. That's it. T-that's it Next week we gon' give you 5for1 then the week after that we gonna give you an entire mixtape that's just one fuckin' track That's it (Good work dude.) I appreciate that, I appreciate you recognizing all the work It is a lot of work. It is a lot of work. Fuck! That's it, 4for1