Artist: Arlo Maverick f/ Timothy Noel Album: Maybe Tomorrow Song: Hurting Inside Typed by: Music For Mavericks [Verse 1: Arlo Maverick] I was barely one When you came from Jamaica Momma working two jobs So you came to raise her One and only son Forget the daycare Far too costly And kids never played fair Mom was always working Cause bills kept piling Plus she had to send money back to the Island Maybe that's why I spent most of my time with you Sing a couple hymns from a book that's blue Memba being teased by them kids at school I came home and asked why they were so cruel You held me and told me Forgive them Soup They know not what they have done to you Hurt cause I thought you had took their side Peckish for destruction and they took my pride Proud like my father but you showed me strength Is the courage not to fight even when you can [Chorus: Timothy Noel] Now I'm a man And I see what I really had I wish I saw then What I see now in my hindsight So I'm hurting I'm hurting Inside [Verse 2: Arlo Maverick] Sunday morning we at Church Back that evening Rest of the week Choir and prayer meetings Needless to say With Mom at work I tagged along with Grandma And was always church It was here I met instruments and melodies Picked it up so easy That I figured it was meant for me Eventually words would become my muse Farfetched dream But you'd still approved Didn't disregard what I hope to be Only thing you asked That I get my degree Kept my promise And got my degree But in coming of age You saw less of me Maybe that's the reason You ain't tell a soul That you were fighting cancer By the time we'd know The cancer's growth Gave you months to live Where was my time from before to give? [Chorus: Timothy Noel] Now I'm a man And I see what I really had I wish I saw then What I see now in my hindsight So I'm hurting I'm hurting Inside [Verse 3: Arlo Maverick] How could I be selfish To someone so selfless To gain a dollar You could say I lost my senses So caught up with my music I would visit you less Taking you for granted Never figured you'd get Old or even ill But mortalities real As I wrestle with these thoughts It's distracting me still You introduced me to music Then I left you to wife it Now thing I love most Now symbolizes Pain and regret And the reason that I'm lonely The reason why my loved ones No longer can hold me Wish you were here But then you would suffer Sadly it took me This to discover The meaning of scriptures You read to me Or the hymns you would sing Just to remedy When I questioned your illness You said it's his plan Even though my heart agrees I can't understand [Outro: Timothy Noel] Can you hear me I'm saying I love you Can you hear me I'm saying thank you Can you hear me I'm saying I miss you And I'm hurting Inside