Artist: Chris Orrick Album: Portraits Song: Mom Typed by: kirenamloh@msn.com, Chris Orrick [Chris Orrick] And now that you've been gone for a decade It's still hard not to cry on my best days Haven't been to your grave in a couple years I'm ashamed, but it's hard, mom, still fucking weird Guess I thought it'd get easier Might find some peace in you leaving behind your demons here But here I am turning thirty, just a man on his journey I'm not mad, understand I'm just hurting The more that time goes, the older I get The more I realize the show that you missed, it's a whole lot of shit I graduated from college with a degree in the politics Had a dream and I followed it, crossed the country and ocean ...And you missed all of it But I'm alright though, still walking that tightrope I have my days and I go through my phases Where I'm fazed by the little things, but that's life though And yeah, I'm still with Kath Thirteen years and no kids, just a little cat His name's Pistachio, for short we call him Stash Still doing rap, but feeling like I'm falling back And Steve and Mike are doing good Couple engineers trying to make a better livelihood And Jay's a little troublemaker, hard on him but I love him And I don't wanna see him struggle later Dad's doing the best that he can I'm just praying for some rest for that man Wish I could have seen the two of you when you were younger Grow old together, couple things have messed with that plan And my plans need some work of their own Keep you alive in these words that I wrote Cause you'll never meet your grandkids and never see your kids married I guess that's the part that hurts me the most It isn't what you missed before, but what could have been What's to come and what should have been And every year I miss you more See your reflection in that man in the mirror when I take the time to look at him