Artist: Hopsin
Album:  Ill Mind of Hopsin 7 (S)
Song:   Ill Mind of Hopsin 7
Typed by: @hopsin

Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm
Life is a tour, I sit and ride along
Takin some notes and then I write the song
I'm starin down the road my life has gone
Is this where I belong?
Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?
My mental state is fuckin me up
And I pry the problem while askin You for some answers
But we don't have that type of bond

That my desires gone with the way that I've been livin lately
If I died right now, You'd turn the fire on
Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sellout
Cause I hopped to Christianity so strongly then I fell out
Now I'm avoidin questions like a scared dog with his tail down
Feelin so damn humiliated because they lookin at me like I'm hell bound

What story should I tell now? I'll just expose the truth
So close to the fuckin edge, I should be close to You
But who the fuck are You? You never showed the proof
And I'm only fuckin human yo, what am I supposed to do?
There's way too many different religions with vivid descriptions
Beggin all fuckin men and women to listen
I can't even beat my dick without gettin convicted
These ain't wicked decisions, I got different intentions
I been itchin to get it, I've been given assistance
But the whole fuckin system is twisted
Now I'm dealin with this backlash because
Marcus isn't a Christian

And I've been told that my sinful life is an addiction
But I can't buy it, it's just too hard to stand beside it
I need an answer and humans can't provide it
I look at the earth and the sun and I can tell a genius man designed it
It's truly mind blowing, I can't deny it
Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it?
Where's the Holy Ghost at? How long it take man to find it?

My mind's a nonstop tape playin and I can't rewind it
You gave me the Bible and expect me not to analyze it
I'm frustrated and you provoked it
I'm not readin that mother**kin book because a human wrote it
I have a motherfuckin brain, you should know it
You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment
It was a mission that I had to abort
Cause humans be lyin with such an inaccurate source
It's gon' be hard to put me back on the course
Next Jehovah's Witness to come on my porch,
I swear I'm slammin' the door

A lot of folks believe it though, but I'm not surprised
Humans are fuckin dumb, still thinkin' that Pac's alive
I ain't tryin to take your legacy and torch it down
I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit from the horse's mouth
Just sheep always tellin stories of older guys
Who were notarized by you when you finally vocalized
Now I'm supposed to bow my head and close my eyes
And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise,
Sounds like a fuckin Poltergeist

Show yourself and the boom is done
Every rumor's gone, I no longer doubt this sh*t, You're the One
I'll admit that my sinful was stupid fun
And all my old habits can hop onto a roof to plunge
I'll donate to charity that could use the funds
fuck the club, instead of bitches I'd hang with a group of nuns
And everyone that I ran into would know what I came to do
I wouldn't take a step unless it was in the name of You

I hate the fact that I have to believe
You haven't been chattin with me like you did with Adam and Eve
And I ain't seen no talkin snake or rabbit from trees
With an apple to eat, that sh*t never happens to me
I don't know if you do or don't exist, sh*t is drivin me crazy

Send your condolences, this is me reachin to you so don't forget
If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it
I'mma probably regret the fact that I ever wrote this sh*t
My gut feelin says it's all fake
I hate to say it but fuck it, sh*t I'd lost faith
This isn't a small phase, my perspective's all changed
My thoughts just keep pickin sh*t apart all day
And in my mind I make perfect sense
If You aren't real then all my prayers aren't worth a cent
That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is
And I could just stand up in the church and say "fuck" in the services

Man what if Jesus was a façade?
Then that would mean the government's god
I feel like they've been brainwashin us with a lot
So much that we don't even notice that we're stuck in the box
Man everythin is "what if", why is it always "what if"
Planet Earth "what if", the universe "what if"
My sacrifice "what if", my afterlife "what if"
Everythin that deals with you is fuckin suspect
I'm fuckin done, I'm fuckin done

This is my fuckin life and I'm livin it, I'm havin fun
If you really care for me prove that I need to live carefully
But I'll be damned if I put my own pleasure
Aside for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed
We are You and You're us, stop playin games
My life's all I got, and heaven is all in my brain
And when I feel I am in hell, my ideas are what get me through pain
Do as you please, and I'll just do me, I am a human, I'll stay in my lane
Ill mind