Artist: Rittz
Album:  Top of the Line
Song:   Nostalgia
Typed by: Nickolye16@aol.com 

[Rittz]
First time I ever set eyes on you
it was love at first sight
You was so young, your mom told me that she got a son
And you were the love of her life
As time went on, me and you bonded
I fathered you, I was so proud to be ya dad
We were so broke, I promised you that one day
I would get rid of the problems we had
I hope you accept my apology
All the fights and the drunk nights that you saw in the past
You never chose sides, we were so sad
But when it came to happiness you're all we really had
You're an angel, so happy-go-lucky
Such a good soul, words can't express
You had a gift of makin people fall in love with you
You affected every single person you met
And we ain't have much, we spoiled you to death
Anything you wanted you could have
I still laugh, think about the holiday
when you snuck and ate a whole cheesecake, we ain't even get mad
That's your favorite - we were so stressed out
We were 'bout to lose the house that we stayed in
I was tryin to be a rapper, we could've moved in my parents' basement
but couldn't bring you, really you're the one that made me
quit tryin to rap so I went and got a job
so that we could get a house, I'd do anything for you
You, me and your mom moved with your grandma
It was us three stuck in a lil' room
Finally had a place to play outside
I would love to see you run like a dream comin true
I was ridin in my car to some tracks one day
Played this beat, started thinkin of you
And now I'm

[Chorus: Rittz - singing]
Lookin in my rear view
Wishin I was near you
It's quiet here without ya
And I've been thinkin 'bout ya
Feelin of nostalgia

[Rittz]
I hated my job, I loved comin home
I would lay in bed with you for hours on end
Me and your mom were obsessed with you
Cause you were momma's baby boy, and daddy's best friend
But daddy ain't been, home a lot lately to play with
I tried to set you down and explain
that I got a new job that I wanted all my life
and that everything might possibly change
That I'ma have to go out of town for some months
but when I'm home I'ma be around every day
And when I'm gone I'ma need you to look out for your mom
Keep her company while daddy's away
Your momma send pics, of you and her in bed
I would feel bad thinkin that you thought I left
But I was savin bread, so we could finally have our own place
Live a life that we should've always had
And I did that, now you're spoiled even more
cause instead of bein cramped now you got your own room
Your mom quit her job, and you and her could chill every day
for the most part, I'd be home too
And life is lookin bright, used to see it so blue
We finally were content, had a daily routine
I made a bunch of songs with your name in them
I would come into your room, huggin you and I would sing
You were always treated like a king, cause you were everything
that mattered to us and I would hate to see your cute face
cryin cause you knew that I was leavin for a tour
Always hated when I go and grab that red suitcase
out the closet, you'd look at me and say you promise
You stayed by your mom when I'm gone
I'll be back in a couple of months
Give me kisses I'll be missin you a ton
Homesick every time I'm

[Chorus]

[Rittz]
You grew up so fast
But you always had a baby face so it's hard for me to tell
You were sick on and off
We were just rough-housin on the bed, good to see you gettin well
I had to go to Omaha for a show
But your mom called me up and told me that you slipped and fell
You were limpin, we figured that you twisted somethin
and had to give it time to tell
I got home and you were breathin funny and your hip was big as hell
Your momma said that she began to see it swell
This morning, this isn't normal, we took him to the doctor
We thought he might've broke his hip bone and it would heal
It's crazy how life change in an instant
The doctor walked in with his x-rays
Said he thought he broke his hip but he didn't
He got bad news and there ain't no way to fix it, what is it?
He said the x-rays showed bone cancer
was spreadin through his legs in a crazy position
And amputation and chemo ain't a option
He probably ain't gon' make it to Christmas
I blacked out, cause Christmas is like three weeks away
When I left he was okay, now your tellin me he's gonna die?
He said "He's strong so he's gonna fight
Eventually you're gonna have to put him down whenever y'all decide"
Please God not our dog, we're in shock, not our son
He's the only thing we got, we was done
It'd be different if we knew that he was sufferin for months
But he's limpin, how the fuck is it that nothin can be done?
Tried to comfort him as much as we could
Drug his mattress, down the stairs to the center of the living room
Me and his mom laid with him every night
Pettin him while he was cryin, you could tell the pain was gettin to him
And me and her in disbelief
All we did was cry, all we did was scream
Strugglin to try, we'd take him outside
But he could barely walk, and every day it seems
It's spreadin even more, the medicine we fed him isn't doin
anything and we just can't accept it that our boy
The most important thing is dyin right in front of us
Like how much do we let him suffer 'til we go and make the choice?
We were layin on the floor almost twenty days
He ain't eatin anymore, he can't move his legs
It's December 21st, I think it's time for us to let him go
so we can send him to a better place
It's been several weeks
Me and your mom still grievin, feelin like we in denial
I go in your bedroom every day, smell the air
Start to cry for a while then I smile thinkin 'bout ya

[Outro: Rittz - singing]
Lookin in my rear view
Wishin I was near you
We're cryin here without ya
We're dyin here without ya
Feelin of nostalgia