Artist: Hotel Books
Album:  Everything We Could Have Done Differently
Song:   Changes Consume Me
Typed by: AZ Lyrics

It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side
That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight
Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor
sickened by the entity I had absorbed, no more
I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor
endure a precipice a monologue questioning my every motive
My disaster stricken heart feeling broken
my emotions quoted spilling out of a broken vase
taking the place of what was once your emotion.

Diluted with tears, an open book scribbled with fears
engraved pools of ink I'm vocally shook; 
and I'm tired of telling myself that it's gonna change.

Taken by the spectacular lie that existence can end
Faulse-hoods predicted my sinners dictated my every decision.

An exit of sorts seemed logical, 
cause I thought I could silence this breath
But contrary to my mindset, I circumvented my threats 
to silence the demons singing songs in my head; 
whispering in my ear, that ending it all is a safe bet.

Comforting me as I try to manipulate my end
Those moments when I decided I couldn't handle this anymore! 
Pins and needles infected every sensation I had left!

Feeling like this love I had once found had been torn open 
and left broken in the cold -that the seams holding it together 
ripped open and my flesh tore open 
with that is I pray that my breathing would stop.

And as I held those staining memories, I held on so tightly; 
remembering what life used to mean
Selfishly ready to embrace the fact that I am weak!

But then I called to you, and I hoped someone would find me; 
and I found you, and I had hoped someone would call me! 
Cause I'm listening to these echoes of my own voice 
leaving damage in the cold, as I feel I have finally grown 
to the point where I can snap
A point of knowing I could never go back...

And it's in the moments I felt most alone
That I told myself no one was there for me; 
and little did I know, love with sitting right beside me, 
I just wasn't listening
At this point in my life I don't know many things, 
but I can promise you this - You are loved completely.